What do you see? My husband sees a pair of pants he wants to throw away every time he does laundry.
These pants aren’t just a pair of worn out Nike pants. These pants are a reminder of who I use to
be. My husband has tried to get me to
throw them away for four years. They are
held together only by the seams on each side of the waistband. They are worn so
thin I can see my skin through them. The
ends are frayed and there is a tiny hole in the back. I’ve searched many times for a pair of Nike
pants just like them but since they are eleven years old I don’t believe I will
find it. I’m okay with that because
honestly I need them.
These pants are a reminder of the beginning of my
journey. They were one of the first
pairs of sweat pants I bought when I started my journey. They were with me during those miserable
first months of training when I believed my body was going to give out. During those first initial weigh-ins when the
scale didn't move and the tears just flowed they were there. When I wear them and they fall to my hips
and hang they remind me again how far I've come.
These pants are a reminder of the days in my living room
when I had to stop every few minutes during my video. They remind me of the fears I had when I
started Muay Thai. They are a reminder
of the first time I heard someone say, “We are just doing six miles”. They remind me of the first day of running to
prepare for the Mini Marathon and the two half marathons I’ve completed. They are a reminder of running my first
Spartan race and climbing a rope and conquering my fear of heights. They remind of the training when I felt my
lungs were on fire. When I thought my
muscles didn't have another pull or push left in them. They
are a reminder of the countless days of weighing food and avoiding restaurants. All
the birthday parties and special occasions when everyone encouraged me to just
have one piece of cake or one cookie. Never
mind that I was fighting my desire to binge eat and that voice telling me it’s
too hard and give up! These pants are a reminder of goals I achieved over the past
five years. They are a reminder of the
wonderful people I met along the way and many people I’ve watched change their
lives. They are a reminder of the
wonderful coaches and role models I have had the pleasure of training with and
learning from.
The first day I got these pants I never would have imagined
they would be with me this long! Still today they are seeing me through; I have
many more journeys ahead and so many more goals to accomplish. I will continue holding on to these awesome
pants with great memories and more goals!
Starting a journey can be scary but living a life with
regret is even scarier. Get started and
make memories! Enjoy the journey! Savor the moments! Don’t wait until it’s too late and you are
forced to make changes. Never make excuses! #Strongmoms
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